where am i now, no direction at all...

after a really bad brk up with her, life is totally down and moody. i have try pulling myself back together but it simply wont goes well. i have no sense of direction at all and where should i head to... left? right? straight? backwards? i am totally lost. TT everyday i woke up i feel something is missing, when ppl is having fun talking about jokes, i am just pretending to be happy. where is my true self? WHERE???? i am just like a blind man with no support and just banging something and wound are everywhere. everything is mess up, everything is so dull to me. i am sick and tired of myself. my mood are so unstable this days, i can go into a very good mood and all the sudden tears are falling for no reason. wat am i thinking now? i cant really answer to myself... every nite b4 i go close my eye, i tell myself wats the purpose of doing this and tat and i also cant answer myself. not like the days b4, everything i do, i will get to answer myself but now, they are all just question marks. what i wan is just get myself back into the old days, happy, chill and cool with everything. some1 plz guide me and point me a direction. i noe i have to independent but is a mess now, so is there anyone out there could point me a direction? at least show me where the lights are and i will try to work something out. now i am still doubting is there anyone tat will show up to guide me. ><